I called the place we went to get the ring resized and appareanlty they had left a message on the twelfth that it was ready but they must have called my work not my cell cause i didn't get the message :( but i got my ring back to day and that makes me happy.
Saphi is sitting on the couch next to me, its nice having my Brat Cat back. I mean I thought I was OK with her being gone, but I was so happy when she came home to me. poor kitty. She still hates mickey and tolerates Pumpernickel.
Kind of drowsy so I am going to sign off for now :)
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
Conact and plans
1-9-2008
Got an Email from my sweetie. He feels about the same way I do about getting Married in the Temple. Which is a very good thing, and one less part of this for me to worry about. Now i just have to find out how long it will be before I can go back to the Temple. Hopefully not to long, I haven't done anything bad, I just stopped going to church and paying my tithing.
So, here is hoping that the waiting period isn't too long, though, I can wait, I mean I have waited all this time to find him, I can wait a while longer to actually marry him, and meanwhile I have a ton of planning to do!
Got an Email from my sweetie. He feels about the same way I do about getting Married in the Temple. Which is a very good thing, and one less part of this for me to worry about. Now i just have to find out how long it will be before I can go back to the Temple. Hopefully not to long, I haven't done anything bad, I just stopped going to church and paying my tithing.
So, here is hoping that the waiting period isn't too long, though, I can wait, I mean I have waited all this time to find him, I can wait a while longer to actually marry him, and meanwhile I have a ton of planning to do!
Waiting
It amazes me that its been 2 months and I still have yet to hear back from th V.A. I honestly wonder why I bother trying to get any care from them, but then I remember I can't afford health care at all, so I have to put up with it if i want to get any treatment at all.
It's not as if I can really do what my doctor told me to do to take care of my hip pain... Lay down... since I do have to work so you know, I can buy groceries and pay bills and such. I can remember his advice of "be grateful that your skinny" particularly when my IBS makes it so evidently clear why I am so very lucky to be skinny.
Ah Joy.
It's not as if I can really do what my doctor told me to do to take care of my hip pain... Lay down... since I do have to work so you know, I can buy groceries and pay bills and such. I can remember his advice of "be grateful that your skinny" particularly when my IBS makes it so evidently clear why I am so very lucky to be skinny.
Ah Joy.
Engaged! And not freaking out...
January 1st 2008 My Sweetie asked me to Marry him. And I am totally stoked!
The hard part is, planning, He is a Marine so his schedule is, tight and unknown, and I work at my families business so, I don't really get vacation days. His phone got left in my car, so I can't call him. Hopefully he will get internet and a mail box next week so i can actually contact him and mail him his phone.
To add to my "Non"-freaking outness, His family are not LDS, so we need to plan this in a way that includes both halves. He really wants to get married where his mom can see him get married, but to me if I don;t marry him in the Temple, we wont really be married. Legally we would but Spiritually and in my heart... we wouldn't be. Plus I have always planned on getting married inside the Temple.
So I need to be able to have a good long planning and talking and discussing of what we can do, and I have tried really I have to be ok with the getting married outside the Temple then waiting and getting sealed inside later, It just doesn't feel right I am not comfortable with it.
It would be faster and we could be Legally married sooner if I am able to reconcile getting married outside the Temple first.
what i really need to do, is talk to my Bishop. Problem with that is, I have been inactive, because, While i still deeply believe in the Gospel and follow the teaching of the scriptures, I don't feel like I belong in my ward. I was really hurt in my last ward when they rearranged the boundaries and the Bishop of that ward told me I didn't belong in that ward and that I should be going to a different ward; not only did all my friends in that ward get moved to a completely different stake, but then I was separated from the other people I knew in that ward. All of the support I had built up and relied on was pulled out from under me so yes, I fell a bit. The ward I am in now, I haven't really gone to in nearly two years now.
What it comes down to I guess is, that even if we decide tomorrow that we want a Temple marriage first, we still have to wait a year. Then again, it might take us that long to get everything figured out and planned anyway...
Still excied and happy and i am looking a dresses and thinking of what we can do, and what we need to do...
and trying very hard to not let that I can't answer questions about when the date is or what our colors are or where we are registered bother me. Its new and I want to linger in the happy of it first :P
The hard part is, planning, He is a Marine so his schedule is, tight and unknown, and I work at my families business so, I don't really get vacation days. His phone got left in my car, so I can't call him. Hopefully he will get internet and a mail box next week so i can actually contact him and mail him his phone.
To add to my "Non"-freaking outness, His family are not LDS, so we need to plan this in a way that includes both halves. He really wants to get married where his mom can see him get married, but to me if I don;t marry him in the Temple, we wont really be married. Legally we would but Spiritually and in my heart... we wouldn't be. Plus I have always planned on getting married inside the Temple.
So I need to be able to have a good long planning and talking and discussing of what we can do, and I have tried really I have to be ok with the getting married outside the Temple then waiting and getting sealed inside later, It just doesn't feel right I am not comfortable with it.
It would be faster and we could be Legally married sooner if I am able to reconcile getting married outside the Temple first.
what i really need to do, is talk to my Bishop. Problem with that is, I have been inactive, because, While i still deeply believe in the Gospel and follow the teaching of the scriptures, I don't feel like I belong in my ward. I was really hurt in my last ward when they rearranged the boundaries and the Bishop of that ward told me I didn't belong in that ward and that I should be going to a different ward; not only did all my friends in that ward get moved to a completely different stake, but then I was separated from the other people I knew in that ward. All of the support I had built up and relied on was pulled out from under me so yes, I fell a bit. The ward I am in now, I haven't really gone to in nearly two years now.
What it comes down to I guess is, that even if we decide tomorrow that we want a Temple marriage first, we still have to wait a year. Then again, it might take us that long to get everything figured out and planned anyway...
Still excied and happy and i am looking a dresses and thinking of what we can do, and what we need to do...
and trying very hard to not let that I can't answer questions about when the date is or what our colors are or where we are registered bother me. Its new and I want to linger in the happy of it first :P
Friday, October 12, 2007
friday
it occurred to me today, how much we are willing to go to when we feel bad in order to feel 'good'. Such extremes, I mean, to find out whats wrong we go without food, ingest foul tasting substances, allow ourselves to be poked and prodeded and in some cases we let them put radioactive substance into our bodies, one of these tests had me sign a waiver just incause what they used to make it so the machine could see my insides better had a negative reaction.
Then of course the irritation of, we don't know yet why exactly you not feeling well, we'll lump you in a group of people who have somewhat simaliar problems and treat you that way, only it doesn't really help.
or the, you have to travel five hours to go see a doctor so we can determine if your problem has gotten worse or not, never mind that an hour in the car is torture. and yet, because I hurt enough to want to get the hoped for treatment, I consider it.
and I think to myself, maybe life is too short to have bad health-care.
Then of course the irritation of, we don't know yet why exactly you not feeling well, we'll lump you in a group of people who have somewhat simaliar problems and treat you that way, only it doesn't really help.
or the, you have to travel five hours to go see a doctor so we can determine if your problem has gotten worse or not, never mind that an hour in the car is torture. and yet, because I hurt enough to want to get the hoped for treatment, I consider it.
and I think to myself, maybe life is too short to have bad health-care.
Tuesday, February 28, 2006
Thursday, October 27, 2005
Doungeons and dragons
so I don't know why, but it seems my pics of Xcedra and the group are not posting... so I am going to try it this way
her it goes!
cheers!
Friday, July 22, 2005
Grand mal seizures in cats
I am posting this in hopes that someone out there will come across this and that they can either answer my questions or at least feel support in that, there is someone else how has a seizure kitty.
Pumpernickel is just over one year old. she is a short hair domestic tortoise shell. She eats just about anything sh gets her mouth on, and has probably the worst markings ever, she reminds me of a moldy pumpkin. She had a problem when I first got her, she had a very bad skin rash, and when I took her into the vet they weren't sure what caused it but thought it might be food allergies. the rash had gotten infected so I had to wash her twice a week in an anti-bacterial anti-fungal shampoo that had to stay on her for ten minutes at a time. she hated it! I changed her food, tried to eliminate anything that might be causing her problem, but no matter what cat food I tried (the only kind she wouldn't eat was kitten food) she still had the rash. Finally I discovered she was eating the fish pellets. I locked up the fish food and moved the fish out of her immediate area so she would stop drinking the fish water and low and behold, her skin cleared up!
She had her first Seizure shortly after I had placed ant baits out an sprayed raid on a and colony, so I assumed she had gotten into one or the other and had eaten it and it was a reaction to the poison. the second time again I had sprayed raid, but I had wiped it up before i let the cats get anywhere near, again I assumed it was from a reaction to the chemicals and vowed never to use the stuff again. the third time she had one, we'd been playing and I had put a collar on her... which at this point I should mention she hates collars because when she was first brought home I had put one on it and while I was at work she had gotten it stuck in her mouth when she had tried to get it off....so i thought maybe it was a stress reaction, more a nightmare then an actual seizure. the fourth time it happened i had been working on some mailing and had rubber bands left over, which i would fire across the room and the cats would chase them, these had gotten onto her feet, but i don't know if that was enough to have stressed her out. this latest, her fifth, happened last night during a particularly long and loud thunderstorm. this one was worse then the others, she flipped about in the bed, wrapping her self up in on of the blankets. it looked like she might have been biting the blanket as well. It wasn't until after i got back to bed that I discovered she had peed as well during this, which made this last seizure a Grand Mal rather then a petite. I called my vet, and the suggestion I got was to start keeping a detail diary of what she does and what happens, how often she has seizures, how bad they are, and what happened before she had one.
I worry for her, I wan so much to be able to do something for her but have no idea what to do. If anyone out there reads this and has an Idea how to help I will gladly take any direction I can.
Pumpernickel is just over one year old. she is a short hair domestic tortoise shell. She eats just about anything sh gets her mouth on, and has probably the worst markings ever, she reminds me of a moldy pumpkin. She had a problem when I first got her, she had a very bad skin rash, and when I took her into the vet they weren't sure what caused it but thought it might be food allergies. the rash had gotten infected so I had to wash her twice a week in an anti-bacterial anti-fungal shampoo that had to stay on her for ten minutes at a time. she hated it! I changed her food, tried to eliminate anything that might be causing her problem, but no matter what cat food I tried (the only kind she wouldn't eat was kitten food) she still had the rash. Finally I discovered she was eating the fish pellets. I locked up the fish food and moved the fish out of her immediate area so she would stop drinking the fish water and low and behold, her skin cleared up!
She had her first Seizure shortly after I had placed ant baits out an sprayed raid on a and colony, so I assumed she had gotten into one or the other and had eaten it and it was a reaction to the poison. the second time again I had sprayed raid, but I had wiped it up before i let the cats get anywhere near, again I assumed it was from a reaction to the chemicals and vowed never to use the stuff again. the third time she had one, we'd been playing and I had put a collar on her... which at this point I should mention she hates collars because when she was first brought home I had put one on it and while I was at work she had gotten it stuck in her mouth when she had tried to get it off....so i thought maybe it was a stress reaction, more a nightmare then an actual seizure. the fourth time it happened i had been working on some mailing and had rubber bands left over, which i would fire across the room and the cats would chase them, these had gotten onto her feet, but i don't know if that was enough to have stressed her out. this latest, her fifth, happened last night during a particularly long and loud thunderstorm. this one was worse then the others, she flipped about in the bed, wrapping her self up in on of the blankets. it looked like she might have been biting the blanket as well. It wasn't until after i got back to bed that I discovered she had peed as well during this, which made this last seizure a Grand Mal rather then a petite. I called my vet, and the suggestion I got was to start keeping a detail diary of what she does and what happens, how often she has seizures, how bad they are, and what happened before she had one.
I worry for her, I wan so much to be able to do something for her but have no idea what to do. If anyone out there reads this and has an Idea how to help I will gladly take any direction I can.
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