Sunday, April 06, 2008

Web site malfunction



So the site I was using for the wedding website ate all my info :(

So I will post info on here until I find a nice stable website to redo it.

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Got my Ring back 01-15-208

I called the place we went to get the ring resized and appareanlty they had left a message on the twelfth that it was ready but they must have called my work not my cell cause i didn't get the message :( but i got my ring back to day and that makes me happy.

Saphi is sitting on the couch next to me, its nice having my Brat Cat back. I mean I thought I was OK with her being gone, but I was so happy when she came home to me. poor kitty. She still hates mickey and tolerates Pumpernickel.

Kind of drowsy so I am going to sign off for now :)

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

Conact and plans

1-9-2008

Got an Email from my sweetie. He feels about the same way I do about getting Married in the Temple. Which is a very good thing, and one less part of this for me to worry about. Now i just have to find out how long it will be before I can go back to the Temple. Hopefully not to long, I haven't done anything bad, I just stopped going to church and paying my tithing.

So, here is hoping that the waiting period isn't too long, though, I can wait, I mean I have waited all this time to find him, I can wait a while longer to actually marry him, and meanwhile I have a ton of planning to do!

Waiting

It amazes me that its been  2 months and I still have yet to hear back from th V.A. I honestly wonder why I bother trying to get any care from them, but then I remember I can't afford health care at all, so I have to put up with it if i want to get any treatment at all.

It's not as if I can really do what my doctor told me to do to take care of my hip pain... Lay down... since I do have to work so you know, I can buy groceries and pay bills and such. I can remember his advice of "be grateful that your skinny" particularly when my IBS makes it so evidently clear why I  am so very lucky to be skinny.

Ah Joy.

Engaged! And not freaking out...

January 1st 2008 My Sweetie asked me to Marry him. And I am totally stoked!

The hard part is, planning, He is a Marine so his schedule is, tight and unknown, and I work at my families business so, I don't really get vacation days. His phone got left in my car, so I can't call him. Hopefully he will get internet and a mail box next week so i can actually contact him and mail him his phone.


To add to my "Non"-freaking outness, His family are not LDS, so we need to plan this in a way that includes both halves. He really wants to get married where his mom can see him get married, but to me if I don;t marry him in the Temple, we wont really be married. Legally we would but Spiritually and in my heart... we wouldn't be. Plus I have always planned on getting married inside the Temple.

So I need to be able to have a good long planning and talking and discussing of what we can do, and I have tried really I have to be ok with the getting married outside the Temple then waiting and getting sealed inside later, It just doesn't feel right I am not comfortable with it.


It would be faster and we could be Legally married sooner if I am able to reconcile getting married outside the Temple first.

what i really need to do, is talk to my Bishop. Problem with that is, I have been inactive, because, While i still deeply believe in the Gospel and follow the teaching of the scriptures, I don't feel like I belong in my ward. I was really hurt in my last ward when they rearranged the boundaries and the Bishop of that ward told me I didn't belong in that ward and that I should be going to a different ward; not only did all my friends in that ward get moved to a completely different stake, but then I was separated from the other people I knew in that ward. All of the support I had built up and relied on was pulled out from under me so yes, I fell a bit. The ward I am in now, I haven't really gone to in nearly two years now.

What it comes down to I guess is, that even if we decide tomorrow that we want a Temple marriage first, we still have to wait a year. Then again, it might take us that long to get everything figured out and planned anyway...

Still excied and happy and i am looking a dresses and thinking of what we can do, and what we need to do...

and trying very hard to not let that I can't answer questions about when the date is or what our colors are or where we are registered bother me. Its new  and I want to linger in the happy of it first :P

Friday, October 12, 2007

friday

it occurred to me today, how much we are willing to go to when we feel bad in order to feel 'good'. Such extremes, I mean, to find out whats wrong we go without food, ingest foul tasting substances, allow ourselves to be poked and prodeded and in some cases we let them put radioactive substance into our bodies, one of these tests had me sign a waiver just incause what they used to make it so the machine could see my insides better had a negative reaction.

Then of course the irritation of, we don't know yet why exactly you not feeling well, we'll lump you in a group of people who have somewhat simaliar problems and treat you that way, only it doesn't really help.

or the, you have to travel five hours to go see a doctor so we can determine if your problem has gotten worse or not, never mind that an hour in the car is torture. and yet, because I hurt enough to want to get the hoped for treatment, I consider it.

and I think to myself, maybe life is too short to have bad health-care.

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

me

me?
I hope this works

Thursday, October 27, 2005

more drawings




these scans sorta suck...

Doungeons and dragons



so I don't know why, but it seems my pics of Xcedra and the group are not posting... so I am going to try it this way

her it goes!

cheers!